In Silence When I'm Getting Lost Inside My Mind!

 

In silence ...

I put on my mind here

Trying to speak loudly

But I can't hear anything

Just feel hurts in the depth of my heart

In silence ...

I hide and give myself space here

Trying to talk to me inside there

But I can't tell anything

Just feel emptiness and the unknown of my mind

In silence ...

Haha!

Am I laughing?

Am I crying?

Am I happy?

Am I sad?

Am I angry?

In silence ...

I can't answer the Why-Question

About the emptiness

About the pain

About the happiness

About the grief

Even about the anger

Here, and now, I'm getting lost inside my mind!

In silence ...

At this moment, that is the crazy thing that scares me a lot lost myself 

-Vinny Erika Putri, 17.08.21